** Talk of postpartum psychosis, thoughts of self harm, and thoughts of harming others**
I wonder if I’ll ever truly be able to put it into words. I suppose the answer is no. I could never put the pain, demons and isolation into words but I try. I try because putting it on paper helps it to stop spinning around in my head. I am filling my second journal in 9 months. The words just flow because I don’t know how else to let this out.
I really don’t write for anyone else. My writing is simply for me. It’s just a bonus if others along the way can be helped by reading it.
I fill my pages with anything that seems to get stuck swirling around my mind. Picking up a pen seems to be a key that unlocks the spinning of the thoughts. Picking up a pen can release the thoughts and emotions that haven’t been able to break free on their own. Continue reading